So today was a typical day, Karate class, then library soon to be followed by finance.  Then something broke this usual chain.  I ran into 3 people I thought I'd never run into.  2 of which I knew went but with the areas we were in we'd never cross, and 1 that I didn't even know went to CSUF; this was Addrinna (ap) I don't know if any of you knew her - she's a short filipino girl with glasses.  We talked for a little bit, then went our ways.  Got her email so we can catch up and stuff later, but yea.  Of the 2, one was my old coworker, and the other was Katharine.

You know, I have to mention it again because I'm somewhat happy this is rarely looked over, lol.  I don't know why, but anyways, back to what I was talking about.

Katharine.  As far as I know we're good friends, but lately these days I don't even know if that's true anymore.  Grew distance and all that, then out of the blue I bump into her at school while leaving the cafeteria center thing..they call it the TSU.  I got her attention and said hi, told her I didn't expect to bump into her because of the above statement, and pretty much went my way after that.  I think I was a little abrupt on my leave (though I was in a hurry to get stuff done) but I had a feeling something was wrong.  When I come home and say hi to Crystale I find out from her just what that is.  I now scare Katharine...lovely thought isn't it?  Do or did I mean to?  Absolutely not...but sadly that is the case now.  Is this an ongoing thing? I don't know.  I don't really intend to ask for fear that I will scare her more so I'll just leave it be. 

In truth I do hope we have some sort of friendship left because she is fun to hang out with and all that.  I'm not upset with it, but it just gets me back to wondering what impact I have on people these days...and with today's findings/events, I wonder what my impact is on people I've known for a while.

Well that's it for now, I'll probably repost this on myspace or something...then again I think I actually have viewers on that one so I might not, lol.


EDIT:

I've been thinking these past couple of days and I've come to realize that she isn't the first, lol.  In truth there have been other friends that have told me that I scare them sometimes and they're totally serious; but it doesn't stop them from being my friend.  I guess if anything, it just came a shocker at the end of a tiring long day.  I'm over it now.

In any case, I'm going to get some serious reading done.  I need to catch up to my webcourse the most in terms of reading, lol.  As it is there's a test due by wednesday, good luck to me; I have two others to worry abou- no 3 others to worry about. yeesh, talk about brain overload, lol.  At least two of them won't be so bad.

It's been way too long since I wrote an entry.  I haven't been busy...technically.  Lazy, possibly.  Nothing to write? Can't really say no...more like haven't felt like writing.

In any case, summers been drawn out and long, but I still feel that I'm going to be annoyed once it ends.  I enjoyed the few hangouts I've had with friends.  I enjoyed the major events, though few, and I've all around just felt better in general....how much? I can't gauge that really, but I'm better.

I'm finally going to be moving up in the academic world; once my transcripts clear.  I sent apps to CSUF and CSULA for the fall...though I think I'm going to have to send some for the spring...only I'll be adding more to that list.

Can't really say that makes me feel like I've grown up though.  Personally I think I get too many mixed vibes from people, as well as myself but eh, nothing to worry myself over.

One thing I'm sad about is that I'm going to have to quit working for a while.  I mean I liked having my own income, but if school's going to get harder, and I really don't buckle down and work on my time management, then I'm going to run into a fault again and I don't need that.

Another thing I'm sad about is that despite my trying to motivate myself to work out I haven't done much.  I really don't like that I'm just slowly gaining, but at the same time I really don't know where my mind is in relation to motivation....I don't think I was ever this bad before.

It's just a lot to think about in general.  I know I really didn't talk about much.  Just a short/long thought process I guess.

So I was just walking to class and saw a friend of a friend, known as Michii I believe, forgot what he real name was; in any case just saw her walking by.

I didn't think to say hi for some reason *shrugs*.

Then as I was studying I looked up and saw Alexa.  I called her up, but she didn't pick up.  Katie met up with me later and said she ran into her; found out she thought it was a co-worker calling her.  lol, oh well at least I know why she doesn't pick up the phone much anymore aside from being on the job.